Most of my blog posts will consist of self-deprecating humor where I will go on and on about the awkward things I do on a daily basis. However, today I think it is a good idea to write about something a little different. Something a little less apologetic.
Every year on my birthday, my close friends write something nice about our friendship on Facebook. It’s a tradition! This year, one of my friends wrote something about me being unapologetically myself. Her heartfelt message stuck with me and it made me think about how far I’ve come with self-acceptance.
Here are some things I am unapologetic about:
My sense of humor. My humor is wet, dry, clean, dirty, and awkward. If I can make you laugh or smile, then I’ve done my job. Life is less awkward when you laugh about it, so I use it as a coping mechanism.
Being an introvert. I think it is fine that I truly enjoy substantial alone time. I love that I have only a few close friends. All good here.
Being overly sensitive. This has its pros and cons, however, I’ve recently come to appreciate this quality because 99% of the time, the people I interact with appreciate it. I love that I can use my intuition and empathetic abilities to feel what another person is feeling at any given time. I have the power to adjust my behavior towards them accordingly. I am often told that “I am too nice”. In my mind, there is no such thing. Yes, I cry over little things but oh well! The pros outweigh the cons.
Being spacey. I am a total space cadet. I have a poor attention span because I have such a wild imagination. My imagination keeps life interesting for me. This is not going to change. I am going to lose my keys, wallet, etc. But hey, I’ve been doing that my whole life and look at me, I’m still alive.
Although I still feel very different from most people, I’ve learned to love my uniqueness. Yes, I have some awkward traits, but the people who love me the most in the world accept those traits (and maybe even appreciate them because it gives them a little something to laugh about). I’ve always believed that it is better to have a few very close friends than to have many not so close friends. So, even though not EVERYONE understands me, there are a select few people who do. I would do just about anything for those select few because they mean the world to me.
Overall, I am proud of myself for making it this far. I’ve struggled with self-doubt since before I can remember. So, to list out these 4 items which I used to hate about myself, but now I love, is really exciting. I hope you all can do the same!